State of delirium..

Had a rather fitful nite.. was upset... and confused.. I questioned n questioned... but couldn't get an answer.
This morning I'm so distracted that I did a few wrong things during the morning prayer session... Luckily mum blamed all that on having not enough sleep.. Thoughts arn't fleeting fast enough.. I recalled that hurting incident .. saw it from a new perspective.. needless a gd one. Experienced another degree of pain.. heartache n betrayal.. Perhaps I've taken in too great a magnitude. Perhaps u will ridicule me.. to have been so affected by such a casual response..:: in fact.. I rather hope thats how u c it rather than thinking that is important... that she matters that much.. that u care to be that curious(quoted) abt it. Nevertheless... I'm holding a different stand.. being not just another friend..

Dunno if I should even blog wat I feel here... it may alter things but I hope not. What done is done.. I recognised that. This could even be a secondary thing to how things r now.?? really dunno what to think... apparently I wasn't included in how your mind thinks or brains wk.. If only I can read your mind.
::Running away from delusions::